So this week has been about the Y Factor! What is the Y factor? It's all those questions you ask yourself, and try to find answers to, to keep you on track and motivated to achieve the world you want.
My Y factor questions ive been fighting with this week. Y do i want this so bad? Y do i sabotage myself? Y do i blame others? What is it that i want? Y am i not happy with where i have come from? Y dont i want to let things happen and enjoy the new exciting things ahead? Y am i so hard on myself? Y do i care what others think?
Someone said to me today, that these questions go through alot of peoples heads. That im not alone.
I find these questions hard and scary at the same time. I dont know what id look like when i lose another 20kg, so imagining myself is very hard to do. So therefore how do i know where im heading?
I want to just let go and embrace the changes that will happen. But something keeps pulling me back.
Its driving me CRAZY!!!!
I have this blame inside me, blaming my parents for the way we were brought up eating wise. Because of their habits, (which i have now inherited) im left working my ass off to better my life and live the way i want to be. Its hard!! Its so god dam HARD!!
But if things were easy, then everyone would be out there smashing it. But only the fighters continue on time and time again.
I am the FIGHTER!! I want this more than words can say. Yes i have these bad habits, but they no longer can control me. I am the only one in control of my fate. Only i can change my ways. Its going to be tough, and im sure as hell not going to let it beat me. But I'm willing to continue to try time and time again. Nothing will make me give up! Ive come to far to give up now.
So i erge all those out there, who in tough times just want to give up. Push through and fight for what you want. Be that person people say 'OMG your amazing, look at what you have done!' Be proud of who you are and where your going.
Someone special always says to me "You only have one life LIVE IT!!!" xxx
My Y factor questions ive been fighting with this week. Y do i want this so bad? Y do i sabotage myself? Y do i blame others? What is it that i want? Y am i not happy with where i have come from? Y dont i want to let things happen and enjoy the new exciting things ahead? Y am i so hard on myself? Y do i care what others think?
Someone said to me today, that these questions go through alot of peoples heads. That im not alone.
I find these questions hard and scary at the same time. I dont know what id look like when i lose another 20kg, so imagining myself is very hard to do. So therefore how do i know where im heading?
I want to just let go and embrace the changes that will happen. But something keeps pulling me back.
Its driving me CRAZY!!!!
I have this blame inside me, blaming my parents for the way we were brought up eating wise. Because of their habits, (which i have now inherited) im left working my ass off to better my life and live the way i want to be. Its hard!! Its so god dam HARD!!
But if things were easy, then everyone would be out there smashing it. But only the fighters continue on time and time again.
I am the FIGHTER!! I want this more than words can say. Yes i have these bad habits, but they no longer can control me. I am the only one in control of my fate. Only i can change my ways. Its going to be tough, and im sure as hell not going to let it beat me. But I'm willing to continue to try time and time again. Nothing will make me give up! Ive come to far to give up now.
So i erge all those out there, who in tough times just want to give up. Push through and fight for what you want. Be that person people say 'OMG your amazing, look at what you have done!' Be proud of who you are and where your going.
Someone special always says to me "You only have one life LIVE IT!!!" xxx
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