Unplanned life spanners

Well another week is over, and this week im not going to talk about weight loss, or what ive done training wise. This week has been one of the hardest weeks of my life.
Monday morning my Nana died in her sleep. So this threw up life upside down. Time to think about my family and forget everything else. Bad timing for sure, but you have to learn to use these hard times to push through/
What a shock it was to find out she had died. So a day with my family, planning, grieving. I even saw her body when we got to there house. Was a very very strange feeling being there with her body and seeing it, then watching her be taken away. I dont think these images will ever go away.
So then it was the longest week ever. Friday was the funeral! Crazy day! I was asked to say a prayer during the service, so i did i cried when i got up there. Its just such a sad time and seeing the coffin while standing up there is heart breaking. I also was a pallbrearer. This was the most difficult thing i have had to do EVER!! We didnt have to carry her out but just push her out. I was a mess, could not control my emotions.
However now it is all over and life can return to normal.
Exercise carried on as normal during this hard time and my eating was up and down. But its a new week. Time to get moving and stuck into this. Ive wasted two weeks with excuses and challenges i had no control over. But eating and my training i could control if i wanted to. So head is back in the game, training harder than before. and eating to the letter!!

Oh on the weekend we had a FTC training session, at the 1000 steps. I am sooo proud of myself. Last time i did the steps it toke me 2hrs to do it. 30kgs lighter i did it in 39mins. I was sooooo excited!!! I ran back down the stairs and all the way to the car park! So Very Very Proud!!

Getting through sickness

Well first week of the challenge and i am so sick i cant do any training! Not exactly the start to the challenge that i was hoping for, but was well enough by the end of the week to do the first group session with our gym! It was hard work, and i am still paying for it, as my legs hurt alot.
This week has been all about my nutrition, which was awesome in a way. It allowed me to focus and get on track and continue on with the weeks to follow. Although i had something to focus on. Not being able to train really played with my head. Working through this was hard at the start, but realising i can only control what i can do, made it easier as the week went on to just do what i needed to do, to still be able to get the results i want.
This week i have felt like weight has dropped off me, and with lots of comments from different people in my life. It gave me confidence and encouragement that it still can happen no matter what i can or cant do.
So i am so excited about the weeks ahead!!! Watch out!!! this is going to be a Transformation you are going to want to see!!!

Week one of 12 weeks of Transformation!

Well this week is week one of the 12 week Transformation challenge! and guess what! im SICK!! I can not believe it. I am so sick that i have to have the whole week of training. Resting my body, will give me the best chance to stay well in weeks to come. Going back into training to early will allow the virus to not fully leave my body.
Its a stuggle, when gym is such a huge part of your life and u go every single day without fail. It very hard to just be at home and dont nothing. This is my biggest struggle this week.
However im not going to let it get me down. If i cant exercise then Nutrition has to be spot on! No room for error.
So will be an interesting week.
Let me know how your week is going!

A week of Binge Eating

Well i am glad this week is over, it has been a long hard road! I have had a lot of trouble this week, fighting my erges to eat bad food ALL the time and lots of it. Once i start i find it difficult to stop. Even to the point where i feel sick, and throw up! I am ashamed of this. However its how i come out the otherside that makes me the person i am!
Days and days of take aways, chocolate, chips, soft drink! My body crashed down, forcing me to have days off work, days off exercising! It gets me thinking, during this low time. why am i doing this? what am i hiding from? or replacing? These are the questions i have been fighting with. But no answers have been found. This is so frustrating! however i have had to look at myself. My goals, my dreams! do i want them? how bad do i want them? are they achieveable dreams? These questions i can answer, and i can act on!
Binge eating is not a good thing, and something i have NEVER EVER done, even at my heaviest weight i would never eat as much as i had during these binges. This is scary, and worrying for me. Although stressing over what i have already done is not going to get me anywhere!
With awesome support, and amazing ppl around me. I have found the strength, the determination to carry on, to strive for what i know i can achieve!
So its the start of a new week! One week until the next FTC challenge begins and i have to get my act together! I have the tools, and skill to stick this out. I now have to work through these challenging times and strive for those huge goals i WILL achieve by 31st Dec 2011.

Have u ever binged? How did u cope? How did u overcome this?? Post a comment/advice. Help me deal with this and help others who might be in the same situation.

Have a great week all! Stay Strong and Follow your dreams!
Lotsa Love Sandie